New School, New Problems.

Halo folks!

Long time no post. Tonight I wanna tell you about my school life. It has been OK, though. OK. I laugh, a lot. But I'm not sure if I have fun. It takes longer to fit in than I thought, but I believe there's still hope to actually fit in. There's hope. Hope. "It is the only thing stronger than fear." said President Snow. I can't believe that quote helps me a lot. So movie-ish but true. You know I go to the school with the best students from all over Jakarta, so I have some problems with scores and the other stuff. First, I was soooo vocal and pretty good at public speaking. But now...... I laugh every time I talk. I can't pick the right words when I talk in front of the public. I go with random words and start to talk about random stuff. Gosh I embarrass my self all the time. But that's what I do. I embarrass. -___- I gotta get rid of this habit or syndrome or whatever. I'm gonna re-learn about public speaking, not public laughing. (My friend said that I'm good at it, public laughing-_-) Second, I'm losing my leadership. I've always been that girl who is picked as a leader. But now...... Nobody trusts me to lead! Because may be I always laugh and can't be serious. I know I can. But the more people say or act like I can't, my mind and body starts to believe that I can't! I gotta fix this or I will lose it forever. It should be in my DNA somewhere! And then, my academic stuff. I'm starting very slow. Very. I feel dumb at times. But, that is exactly what I need. To feel dumb. If you feel smart, you will stop learning. But if you feel dumb, you will keep learning. They call me Dory, that blue fish from finding Nemo. They call me that because I process so slow. But in the end, I'm the one who gets Marlin to his son. I am the one who remembers it all, P. Sherman 42 Wallaby Way, Sydney. I fail all the time, but that is exactly what I need. It is the fuel to my rocket that soon will launch to outer space. Leaving you people, then spread flower seeds on Mars, and lay on them once that grow. (?) They won't ever  but I have the hope that they will. :)) The point is, it's not about how you start, it's how you finish.

Handwriting

Halo! Post gue kali ini berbahasa Indonesia. Jadi ceritanya gue mau ngomongin tulisan gue. Dari SD sampe sekarang SMA kayaknya gaada yang pernah bilang tulisan gue bagus. Semua selalu bilang kayak ceker ayam, dan lain-lain. Hahaha memang begitulah kenyataannya. Jujur aja, gue gak pernah menganggap tulisan gue jelek wkwk. Emang berantakan tapi artistik ah wkwk. Well punya tulisan kayak tulisan gue emang kadang menyedihkan. Kalo bagian nulis-nulis gitu pasti gak bakal dipilih. Kadang enak sih, tapi kadang ya gitu lah wkwk. Enaknya sih, kalo ada yang mau minjem buku berisi pr buat dicontek, tinggal bilang, "Ambil aja. Tapi kalo bisa baca ya." Terus pas ngeliat pasti gajadi nyonteknya. :)) Bagi yang penasaran, ini dia mahakarya tulisan gue: 

Sebenernya gue bisa kok nulis rapih. Cuma butuh usaha. Kalo tulisan kayak gini sih keuntungannya bisa nulis cepet banget karena semi sambung gitu. Tapi kerugiannya ya pas bacanya lagi pasti suatu saat berhenti dulu buat mikir ini huruf apa hehe. Intinya sih, gak perlu malu kalo tulisan lo jelek. Pasti nanti ada seseorang yang bakal menyukai lo karena tulisan lo. (?)

Halo!

Halo! This is my first post. Greetings to you, visitors! I'm from the most beautiful country in the world, Indonesia. So, I don't really know what to write so I'm just gonna tell you why my blog named Florasia-esterische. Hmmm florasia. Flora is actually an Indonesian for plant, including flower. My name is Bunga. Bunga means flower and I added asia to show that I'm an Indonesian or Asian. (?) -_- No not really I just like the way it sounds. Florasia. Aaaaand the origin of esterische is kind of ridiculous but I'm gonna tell you though. It was inspired by a name of bacteria, Escherichia coli. -_____- Hahaha. I don't know but the name Escherichia is really interesting to me even though is the name of a digestive bacteria. It was found by Theodor Escherich. Such a pretty name. 

Flower and bacteria? Such a perfect match!



And now I'm going to tell you why I start to blog. I've ever blog before but then I got bored because I was lazy to update it. But now I start to write again because my dad said blogging is good to improve your writing abilities, widen knowledge, and to express the unexpressed feelings.

Well the main reason is probably I kind of need somewhere safe to pour my thoughts because currently I'm entering my 10th year and I wanna make some changes, positive ones. So I decided to try to listen more, and talk less. And I do now, listen more than talk. And it feels good. Not really. I used to talk a lot. More than lot. From debating about which pants are more suitable for survival in the forest to make fun of someone's laugh. But now I have to tell my self to shut up every time  I'm about to say something that's not very necessary. When I'm about to give an opinion about something. I try to just keep it inside and give'em an 'I know everything' smile. :)) Soooo that's why I made this blog. To pour my unnecessary thoughts. Enjoy! :)